the sweetest tiramissu

nothing's ever built to last (greenday-21guns)
but when the rain is falling, i don't feel it cause you're here with me (bad english-when i see you smile)
through this world without having you, i just wouldn't have a clue (when i see you smile)
if only you saw what i can see, you'll know why i want you so desperately (one direction-what makes you beautiful)
being the way that you are is enough
if you ever find your self stuck in the middle of the sea, i'll sail the world to find you (bruno mars-count on me)
just like the clouds my eyes will do the same (bruno mars-it will rain)
never plan that one day i'd be losing you (katy pery-the one that got away)you
cause the hardest part of these, is leaving you (MCR-cancer)
when you go, would you have the guts to say: i don't love you, like i loved you yesterday (MCR-i don't love you)

not so important actually.. just wanna write before i'm writing my skill's lab report. ;)

ngga tau sih mau nulis apa. don't really wanna write actually. but i just wanna write anything flooding my mind. you know what month is it? yeah it's april guys! and it is mine, no it's ours actually. cause many people feel so lucky in this month.
starting from this month, i promise i won't look back to the past. i promise i will let go something that used to make me fly but then fell down without any safety landing. well i know letting go is never gonna be that easy. but i believe i can.
it's just like letting basic medical science go. you know, i was kinda suck at biology when i was in high school. while surprisingly basic "mad"ical science brags about biology (esp anatomy and physiology) all the time. i've actually tried to understand it. but i feel like, to many materials to master about and this is so confusing. imagine how do you study 3 systems of body for only 3 days? it doesn't make sense. that's why my first basic medical science's exam was way bad. i got 60. i supposed to be grateful for getting 60 and dont have to get a remedial. but still i feel so ugh!!!
i was just facing the last exam of this basic medical science. i thought it would be better than the first one, instead it was times harder than the first exam! God please gimme the best. you know what is the best for me.

self, i promise in this new block (basic dentistry) i will push myself to study hard. i won't hurt you anymore, self. i'll avoid all things that make me down and stupidly feeling so hurt. i promise... promise...

5-4-12

liburan semester ini tinggal 2 hari lagi. banyak hal memorable yang terjadi diliburan kali ini. gue akan split ke beberapa part okay? check 'em out....

Palembang...
liburan semester 1 tanggal 14-16 januari dibuka dengan liburan ke palembang. yippe. gue over-excited abis. hal yg bikin gue excited sih sebenernya keluar dari pulau jawa. karna maklum aja gue belom pernah sama sekali ngerasain ada di pulau lain selain pulau jawa ini. dan rasanya.. rasanya... sama aja sih *gubrak hahah*

University Day Out 2012 :).. 22 januari 2012
akhirnya ucapan gue taun lalu yang kira2 berbunyi 'tahun ini ikut udo, tahun depan balik lagi jadi panitia pake jaket kuning B)' alhamdulillah tercapai. seneng rasanya bisa berbagi pengalaman ke ade2 kelas yang lagi pada galau jurusan dan universitas (semoga kehadiran kakak bermanfaat ya dek :p). seneng juga ketemu temen2 dengan almamater yang diimpikannya. finy dengan almamater upi nya, andri dan pida dengan almamater ugm nya, bagus dengan almamater undipnya yahh walaupun pengennya jaket kuning but dude, i concede you look great wearing undip almamater :).. habis itu ada moment yang..... memorable!

Dufan.. 1 februari 2012
what a perfect beginning of february huh? gue emang udah berencana ke dufan. udah ngebet banget lah. tiba2 ada yg sms ngajakin ke dufan bareng. jadilah gue ikut. thanks a lot ya buat yg udah ngajakin :). dufan sepi dan asik serasa punya kita2 doang. begitu dateng langsung naik kora2, lanjut halilintar, arung jeram, bumper car dll... well wahana yg paling serem menurut gue adalah halilintar. pengen nangis gila pas udah berenti (oke ini lebay). ada lagi wahana yg bikin badan gue memar: bumper car! serius itu parah. alap2 alias halilintar ulet ijo asik banget. gue sampe naik 3x (ya iyalah ga ada serem2nya -,-). but most of all wahana fave gue tetep niagara. tau kenapa? karena.... hehe emang suka aja sih dari dulu. udah gitu kemaren..... hehe (apa sih)

ITB fair 2012.. 5-6 februari 2012
lagi2 ada 'elo' di liburan gue. gue ke itb fair bareng bagus, idam, okta, aji(cowoknya okta). awalnya gue cuma iseng2 nge tweet (tapi serius gue emang pengen ke itb fair) yang ujung2nya ada yg nge retweet mau ikutan ke itb fair. itu pertama kalinya gue masuk itb. deg2an. masuk ke kampus yang dulu sempet bikin gue marathon belajar dan ambisius abis. tapi jujur gue sedih banget pas berapa hari setelah pulang dari itb fair ada temen gue yg sms 'gakkan lagi gue pergi sama lo.' dia juga bilang ngga nyaman pergi sama gue. FINE! ngga pernah ada yg bilang nggak nyaman pergi sama gue kecuali elo. standing ovation deh ya! :"""(

well, tomorrow i have to go back to Jakarta. I am now ready to face the new semester. sounds challenging. just pray for me and my ipk! o:) fkg ui i'm comiiiiiiiiiiing!!! :D

9-2-2012

well times goes really fast. gotta thank god a lot for many things happened at 2011. in this new year eve, i'm writing my new target at 2012.. here they are

1. dapet nilai A di ujian ikd/ikgd blok depan
2. ipk 3, sekian
3. dapet beasiswa
4. ikutan organisasi (ga boleh mager!)
5. no procrastination!

mungkin target taun depan memang keliatan sedikit. tapi sebenernya penting untuk diwujudkan!

keep spirit cause i know no star is out of reach!
bismillahirrahmaanirraniim i'm gonna make it! ;)


cheers, affiva
31-12-2011

well karena sudah memasuki minggu akhir di tahun 2011, berartiiii *drum roll* saatnya gue mengevaluasi target2 tahun ini yang gue buat di penghujung tahun 2010 kemarin.
mulai dari target nomor 1:

1. university of indonesia - faculty of dentistry

alhamdulillah masuk fkg ui lewat snmptn undangan. ini adalah suatu mukjizat ter-ajaib ditahun 2011. alhamdulillah lagi karena jarak dari pengumuman snmptn undangan ke tes snmptn tulis itu cuma 1 minggu. bayangin aja kalo ngga diterima di undangan, pasti bakal down dan pasti ngaruh ke mental pas tes tertulis.

2. institute technology of bandung - faculty of civil and environmental engineering

just hope :'"")

3. great marks for national examination. GRADUATE!

alhamdulillah lulus dengan rata2 >80

4. avoid procrastination

yang ini sih udah lumayan lah. ngga ada pekerjaan yg ketunda sampe berhari-hari

5. get a scholarship(anything)

belum dapet :(

6. excels my knowledge

buat yang satu ini gue rasa kurang maksimal. harus baca buku yang banyaaaaaaaaak!!

7. fix up my mood

yang satu ini bisa dikatakan berhasil. gue udah jarang banget ngambek2 ngga jelas dan ngamuk2 sendiri kayak jaman smp-sma kelas 2

yak itu lah evaluasi dari fokus 2011. semoga poin2 yang belum terwujud bisa gue wujudkan di tahun yang akan datang. semangat affiva aqmarina!!!!

26122011

Hari ini hari minggu. Hari kedua rangkaian KAMABA UI (kegiatan awal mahasiswa baru ui). 2 hari ini agendanya latihan padus untuk wisuda nanti. Kemarin setelah padus, ada acara briefing dengan manager kemahasiswaan fakultas masing2. Dan nama manager kemahasiswaan fakultas kedokteran gigi nya bernama pak Andi Sofyan. Beliau ramah banget. Beliau mengatakan bahwa di fkg nanti semuanya teratur dan ngga ada semester pendek. Cara belajarnya pun ngga seperti kbm di sma. Dan lulus pun akan teratur juga (3,5 tahun) aamiin. Tapiiii jangan seneng dulu. Lulus yang 3,5 tahun itu masih masa pre-klinik alias masih S.KG(sarjana kedokteran gigi). Nah untuk dapet gelar drg kita harus ambil yg namanya co-ass sebanyak 3 semester.

Jadi, kalo diakumulasi butuh waktu 5 tahun untuk jadi seorang dokter gigi. Fuhh what a looong long journey. Tapi ini emang resiko yg dari awal udah gue pikirin mateng2. Walaupun gue ini orangnya kekeuh banget kalo mau sesuatu, sejujurnya gue agak sedikit khawatir. Gue khawatir di tengah jalan nanti ada sesuatu yang menghadang gue untuk jadi drg. Gue butuh semangat yg berapi2 tapi ngga bisa padam walau di terpa tornado sekalipun.

Yaa allah, hamba mohon kobarkan lah selalu semangat yg berapi2 didalam diri hamba untuk menggapai cita2 jadi dokter gigi gaul yg bersahabat dan paling di cari2 pasien. Supaya bisa banggain ayah ibu dan balas budi sama mereka(meskipun ga akan terbalas).

So, ini adalah awal. Baru awal menuju cita2. Ini belum apa2. Ayo affiva semangat! Kamu pasti bisa!

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim!

7-08-11 :)

i know exactly how you feel cz i've ever been in that situation.
i've been 6 months in that situation until you come in and i let you in
you know what? letting someone in for me isn't that easy. i'm not such a girl who is easily getting along with a stranger. moreover it is a boy.
i don't know why, i can get along with you.
seeing your persistence in order to get what you really want, makes me concern about you and your dream. cz basically i love those who show their effort.
then i decided to be your friend. a friend will never just sitting around seeing her/his friend get hurt so much. then i decided to encourage you.
after that i catch a hint from you. i firstly have no idea about it. i'm too naive. then my bestiest tell me that you mean something to me.
but then i found your random mind. you're still concerning bout your X. i realize that is not my part to stop you doing that. just have it your way.

but i still care. you can just text me, send me message if you get hurt again then you don't have anyone to share, just share it with me. i'm always here if you need me.
nothing to worry about, dude! :)

by: iva :D