the sweetest tiramissu

ngga tau sih mau nulis apa. don't really wanna write actually. but i just wanna write anything flooding my mind. you know what month is it? yeah it's april guys! and it is mine, no it's ours actually. cause many people feel so lucky in this month.
starting from this month, i promise i won't look back to the past. i promise i will let go something that used to make me fly but then fell down without any safety landing. well i know letting go is never gonna be that easy. but i believe i can.
it's just like letting basic medical science go. you know, i was kinda suck at biology when i was in high school. while surprisingly basic "mad"ical science brags about biology (esp anatomy and physiology) all the time. i've actually tried to understand it. but i feel like, to many materials to master about and this is so confusing. imagine how do you study 3 systems of body for only 3 days? it doesn't make sense. that's why my first basic medical science's exam was way bad. i got 60. i supposed to be grateful for getting 60 and dont have to get a remedial. but still i feel so ugh!!!
i was just facing the last exam of this basic medical science. i thought it would be better than the first one, instead it was times harder than the first exam! God please gimme the best. you know what is the best for me.

self, i promise in this new block (basic dentistry) i will push myself to study hard. i won't hurt you anymore, self. i'll avoid all things that make me down and stupidly feeling so hurt. i promise... promise...

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